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I'd like to update all of you on my current situation;
I feel like I owe you an explanation on why my art has become very rare, and the overall absence on my end of conversations. It's the least I can do for my friends; fans; and lookers.

I have been fighting a long and frustrating fight against anorexia, and it's taken over every single aspect of my life. It's sucked every last breath; every last bit of energy; every last bit of life out of me. It has gotten in the way of friendships, school, work, family, health, art, and anything else that I involve myself in. It has become my life, no matter if I wanted to or not. I have become a recluse, and have become terrified of friendships, and overall any contact with anyone. I am very sorry if it feels like I have been cold or absent, it was not my intention. I have hit bottom, and relapsed completely. I can barely get out of bed; I can barely walk through my house; I can barely even sleep. I'm losing all of my hair. My chest is constantly in pain, and I'm so entirely cold. I'm watching my life fade away and there's nothing I can do about it.

I am going to intensive hospitalization soon. "Soon" does not have a date yet, and could be a few weeks from now, to a few months from now. That's up to my insurance. I'm not sure how much my body can handle anymore, and I don't know if it can make it that long, but I hope I can fight my way through.

I am trying my best to finish all the art I can. I've had a hard time concentrating, and truly, I've been spending a lot of my time lately abusing sleep aids to get the proper sleep I need. But I am trying my best and I hope you can be patient with me. That's all I really ask. Thank you all for being so kind to me, and being such wonderful people.

I will not tolerate intolerant comments.
Keep your two-cents to yourself.
I don't need "advice" nor your own story.
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TranquilDisturbance Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
<3
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TheCityOfTokyo Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry i've been away so long... It makes me wanna cry because I go living my life all happy-go-lucky when other people are suffering. Please please pleeeeaaaasssseeee get better and take all the time you need! Even though your anorexic I still think your really pretty just like i've always said (Grins)
Toodles! *Waves*
-TheCityOfTokyo <3
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xXwannabeartistXx Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
take the time you need to heal we can wait and stay strong ^,^
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ButterflyBabyBlue Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have faith in you, Trinity.
I really hope you are able to overcome this.
:heart:
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Shinsua Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2012
For all of us, I hope you pull through this. I know little of you, but I do know that I don't want anything tragic to happen to you. Trinity, please, don't give up.
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TakoNeko Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
stay strong, we're supporting on you ^^
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x-Hikarii Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Stay strong. x
You can do it!
I know how it feels (not looking for attention)
You are not alone, stay strong and ofc keep doing your amazing art work <3
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Fate44 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
I know what it's like to see someone go through this as my cousin suffered for years with it.
I wish all the best for you and that you can pull through.
Good luck and don't let it take away the things you enjoy.
x
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Neonmoon133 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student General Artist
good luck with everything stay strong!
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Dickywebster Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
Good luck and i wish you all the best :)
And i know you dont like hugs, but :hug:
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Shikaeshi-sama Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Dear, you're strong! We all know that you'll be able to defeat it!
I wish I could hug you now, just to show you that I love you and I really want the best for you. :hug:
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NinjaWolf-Sam Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student General Artist
Get back on your feet, hun :) Prayers, and thoughts go out to you. I hope you get better
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TheMorbidThinker Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
best wishes trin .n.
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AmaiDollouse Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student General Artist
I feel so sorry for you! I really hope you get better soon!
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rain--soaked Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012   Digital Artist
you are the most incredible person I have ever met, Trinity. I love and adore you, you are one of the things I stay alive for. Its killing me to see you like this and if I could, I would take all the pain and problems from you and into my own body. I wish I could be there with you, to help you with something, anything, just to make it easier for you. I love you to death and will walk to hell and back for you. You know this. The thought of you dead. . . is not something I can handle. I shake at the thought, cry when I force myself to imagine it. You're the strongest woman I know, and I know that you'll find the strength to get through this. You are your own priority, so don't worry about anything, not art nor school nor work nor anything else, until you are better. We're all here for you, Trinity. You know this. <3
also as a friend, please, PLEASE go into hospitalization soon. I know you want no advice but you need this. . . I love you and am afraid to lose you.
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9999DamagePoints Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student Digital Artist
uff, Im sorry
I know we dont speak too much, but believe me when I say that I hope that you recover soon (because I trust that you recover sooner or later BUT better sooner than later!)

íte deseo la mejor de las suertes! (I wish you the bests of luck!)
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AkumaFairy Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
god, i really hope you are okay. i would love to give advise, but i know you don't want any so i won't bother you.

you are probably one of the strongest people i know of, so just keep fighting, i know you will triumph in the end :)
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pikkelpox Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I won't claim to know what you're going through or understand your situation; But please know that I can sympathize, even if just in the tiniest way, with you. I live in Canada, so my situation and placement will no doubt be much different than yours, but I can try and assure you that hospitalization isn't that bad.
I don't know you or what prompted you to do what you have, but I will say that I believe you can get through this. From what I've read (And I know that isn't much, really) you seem like a very strong person. I have faith that you /will/overcome this and I'm sure you'll be back to posting up amazing art in no time.

Sincerely,
Some random stranger you don't know but cares about you anyways.
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Nuedelchen Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Which you'll won your fight !
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KitaeKat Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
;u; You're a strong person Trin and I am hoping everything goes well for you <33

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Skitzzo943 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I know your gonna be just fine and right back into the swing of things :). Much Love to ya Trin!
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Hayley-wa Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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louisacar Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Digital Artist
(hugs) We love you...fight it!
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omidog06 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I may be too late for this to reach you or too far from being anyone you know for this to be read but though I may not know you personally I know that someone who can make as much beautiful art as you do as great as you do and has the strength to tell the world what you are going through without being one of those people who are just begging for attention then you most DEFINITELY can and will overcome any adversities through the sheer will to conquer any problem and return to your art whether they be mental blockades preventing you from being happy or any kind of physical imbalance. Have faith in yourself and your friends will do the same
best of luck to you and may you achieve true happiness and joy in yourself as others have!
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RainbowAurora Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Trinity, you are amazing.

Just remember that as you go through this long and tough battle of yours.

We, your fans, love you to death and will support you in every way possible.

Stay strong. ❤

✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿
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SashaVasileva Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you get better soon! :hug:
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NasikaSakura Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
It's all right, honey. I'm sure noone would blame you for not updatign your art. The priority is your self-being, after all.
Relapse happens all the time, more likely multiple times than once in each case, but that doesn't mean you have been beaten. I have faith in you, Trin, and hope for you. You just need to get better and be happy. Art is meant to make you happy, when you FEEL like making it. :huggle: When you are in the hospital, will they allow you to have your computer? Just wondering. Also, now that I have some money, I want to send you your package (I'm so sorry it's been so logn, but my money's been sucked up lately by other more urgent expenses). If it comes while you're in the hospital, will someone be able to bring it to you, or should I hold off until you are released? If it's too much to think about right now, I understand. :) It's not urgent.
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puriponpon Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
Oh dear Trinity, You are an inspiration to me so much, you're strong, sweet, everything I hope to become, and I want to thank you, for making me smile through my tears every time I meet you. Be strong :heart:
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Mikk-i Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Digital Artist
You are so very brave sweetheart. I you can beat this, I know you can. You are strong.
I will always be your friend, no matter what! :hug:
I wish you luck on everything. :)
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Ika-Hime Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i hope everything gets better for you. <333
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toadsandtombstones Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I really hope you can get to the hospital as soon as possible, dear. I know I've already said this on tumblr but I must say it again: I'm so sorry for the pain you're in. You're such a lovely, kind person, and I hate to see you hurting so much. I hope they can take care of you there and that you may find yourself in radically better shape in the end.

My prayers to you, Trinity. :heart:
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Kyonei Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
From the time I've talked to you, you haven't come off cold at all. If anything, you've been really really nice. :heart:
To be honest, you are a very strong person. During the time that I commissioned you, you were constantly on the ball game.
You tended to any questions or changes I requested and you were always there to update me on everything.
And even then, I hadn't really known you were suffering from something so sever as Anorexia. D:

I have a lot of respect for you Trinity! You are such a strong, brave and kind person. You are the type of person kids should look up to and have as a role model.
You do not need to be sorry for anything as this isn't your fault at all!
I just wanted to post/comment and give you some support cause' truth be told you deserve this. :hug:

Thank you for letting us know about your situation, I could not imagine just how hard it is to type out and explain everything that you did here.
I sincerely hope that help is on it's way promptly and that you can recover swiftly from this. We're backing you up Trinity! :heart: :hug:
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TheOriginalHera Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
:(
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BlazingMalice Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Be Strong :)
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lemon--swan Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Artist
I've been in your situation before, and I myself am still fighting to get through it, so I know what its like!

You have a lot of support, and I hope you get better!
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RainbowAurora Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
she said she doesn't want to hear your story

but, i think you weren't really trying to go there so,
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lemon--swan Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Student Artist
No, I wasn't, I'm just trying to tell her she isn't alone...

Just trying to give support! ):0
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RainbowAurora Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well i can see where you were going

so peace & love
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KattlinYaKno Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm glad you'll be getting help soon, I hope it really does help you get through this issue. I can't wait to see more of your beautiful art whenever you're able to get to it, don't work yourself too hard ♥
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FielDoc Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
Stronger with every step. You can make it.
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Maiichu Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i know what its like to battle anorexia, so i hope you feel better! keep fighting, focus on your health :heart: we all support you!
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Lunetta654 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
I can't even...say anything right now...QwQ
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Trinity-In-Rainbows Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
That is okay. <3 Thank you.
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Lunetta654 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
All the tears...
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YorokobiNyan Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
I hope you overcome this very soon! And don't worry about anything else but your health right now! that is what is most important
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Trinity-In-Rainbows Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you very much, you are too kind. <3 I am trying my best. <3
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YorokobiNyan Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2012
well i believe in you dear I wish you the best of luck *huggle*
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8ieni Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AMG i'm so sorry for you :iconcraiplz:
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Trinity-In-Rainbows Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
No need to feel sorry, I am trying my best. <3
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8ieni Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aww ♥ I hope you feel better soon :iconsadhugplz:
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