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Explanation for my Recent Disappearance.

Please read this with understanding:

This is and will be probably my most difficult and most humiliating thing I have ever said.
All I need is compassion, and understanding.
I don't need opinions, I don't need pity, I don't need your advice.
All I need is understanding.
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As you all may have noticed, I have not been around.
I have not communicated with anyone, and I have not been posting as much.
I have over 10,000 messages here on dA that I have yet to respond to, a lot of them important. I have not chatted on Livestream as much, and overall, I seemed to have disappeared to you all. I have a lot of people asking where I am, or when's the next time I'll be around. It breaks my heart to read these, and more so, to not be able to respond honestly.
~
I have been having a really difficult time lately in life. Things just aren't seeming uphill for me, and it's literally wasting me away. I have been dealing not with actions in life, other people, or outside stress, but with the

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I'd like to update all of you on my current situation;
I feel like I owe you an explanation on why my art has become very rare, and the overall absence on my end of conversations. It's the least I can do for my friends; fans; and lookers.

I have been fighting a long and frustrating fight against anorexia, and it's taken over every single aspect of my life. It's sucked every last breath; every last bit of energy; every last bit of life out of me. It has gotten in the way of friendships, school, work, family, health, art, and anything else that I involve myself in. It has become my life, no matter if I wanted to or not. I have become a recluse, and have become terrified of friendships, and overall any contact with anyone. I am very sorry if it feels like I have been cold or absent, it was not my intention. I have hit bottom, and relapsed completely. I can barely get out of bed; I can barely walk through my house; I can barely even sleep. I'm losing all of my hair. My chest is constantly in pain, and I'm so entirely cold. I'm watching my life fade away and there's nothing I can do about it.

I am going to intensive hospitalization soon. "Soon" does not have a date yet, and could be a few weeks from now, to a few months from now. That's up to my insurance. I'm not sure how much my body can handle anymore, and I don't know if it can make it that long, but I hope I can fight my way through.

I am trying my best to finish all the art I can. I've had a hard time concentrating, and truly, I've been spending a lot of my time lately abusing sleep aids to get the proper sleep I need. But I am trying my best and I hope you can be patient with me. That's all I really ask. Thank you all for being so kind to me, and being such wonderful people.

I will not tolerate intolerant comments.
Keep your two-cents to yourself.
I don't need "advice" nor your own story.

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~TranquilDisturbance 3 days ago Hobbyist General Artist

~TheCityOfTokyo Jan 16, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

I'm sorry i've been away so long... It makes me wanna cry because I go living my life all happy-go-lucky when other people are suffering. Please please pleeeeaaaasssseeee get better and take all the time you need! Even though your anorexic I still think your really pretty just like i've always said (Grins)
Toodles! *Waves*
-TheCityOfTokyo <3

~xXwannabeartistXx Nov 24, 2012

take the time you need to heal we can wait and stay strong ^,^

~ButterflyBabyBlue Nov 11, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

I have faith in you, Trinity.
I really hope you are able to overcome this.

~Shinsua Nov 10, 2012

_{For all of us, I hope you pull through this. I know little of you, but I do know that I don't want anything tragic to happen to you. Trinity, please, don't give up.}

!TakoNeko Nov 10, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

stay strong, we're supporting on you ^^

~x-Hikarii Nov 9, 2012 Student Digital Artist

Stay strong. x
You can do it!
I know how it feels (not looking for attention)
You are not alone, stay strong and ofc keep doing your amazing art work <3

~Fate44 Nov 8, 2012

I know what it's like to see someone go through this as my cousin suffered for years with it.
I wish all the best for you and that you can pull through.
Good luck and don't let it take away the things you enjoy.
x

~Neonmoon133 Nov 8, 2012 General Artist

good luck with everything stay strong!

*Dickywebster Nov 8, 2012

Good luck and i wish you all the best

And i know you dont like hugs, but

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